Fearless for Him - 2007 + Update 2013

I came in from working outside and this song that I love was playing on my computer: 

MISSING PAGES
by Seventh Day Slumber

On the outside all we see is clay
That hides the perfect light
But no one really knows the pain inside

I understand how much it hurts
To be the one who’s never seen
The missing pages in a magazine

No one knows you anymore
You’re lost inside the walls you’ve built
No one knows you anymore
A prison deep within your soul
There is One who sees it all
He’ll give you life you’ve never dreamed
He can see the pain underneath your skin

It’s hard to see you fading
Nothing that I do can bring you back
I pray to God that you don’t fade away

Your addiction is a symptom of a lost and dying soul
Without Jesus there’s no hope at all

No one knows you anymore
You’re lost inside the walls you’ve built
No one knows you anymore
A prison deep within your soul
There is One who sees it all
He’ll give you life you’ve never dreamed
He can see the pain underneath your skin

There’s so much more this is not the end
It’s all in your hands don’t throw it away
A beautiful life with so much to give
The image of God underneath your skin
The beauty of God underneath your skin (3x)

These lyrics a remind me of me before I’d rededicated my life to the Lord in 1988.

I sent this e-mail to my husband about a month ago:

“I had an interesting conversation with God today while out driving in my car.
He said: "Go where I tell you and I will give you anything you want."
I said: "And, I only want that which lines up with Your word." (This happened while I was driving over the Manatee River! I, literally, saw a vision of Jesus' face in the water a month or so ago!)
Then I said: "Protect me I will lead them to You".
And, it was just as if I'd written out a paper contract and signed it! Things are going to happen in our life. Just expect and you'll be awed by His miracles!”

I was talking to God, not my husband. I, too, believe that my husband is my helpmate to help me live life and to help protect me from some things but this IS my calling. But, if my husband is always trying to protect me by stopping me from doing things, how will I do what God wants me to.

When I was healed, my husband told me that he was worried that I’d be one of those wives that spouts off about how God told them to do this or that so they run off and leave their husbands behind. I told him that I did not and would not become that kind of wife. So, I guess he will have to either learn to let go and let God or join me.

God showed me that my witness is to the world’s throw-a-ways. How can that be, if I can’t go? I’m not afraid, strangely. I’m more afraid of them dying and not knowing Jesus, honestly! Lately, that is when all the tears come! Not in just missing my friends, but remembering the suicides, the deaths, and remembering looking into all those eyes and seeing the pain inside -- THAT I remember clearly! I know Jesus is their ONLY way out! My oldest brother, (minister), had a word from God for me just before my healing. He said that God told him that I was a signpost pointing the way to Him! I want to be able to be that sign post!

Last night I sent out a bunch of prayer requests:

“Too long of a story. I'm going through some major spiritual warfare right now. Please keep me and my family in your prayers!”

and right when I sat down to write today, I saw a reply from CBN, that said:

“As born-again believers, God has given us authority over the power of the enemy through Jesus Christ (Luke 10:18-19). Many people, however, fail to receive their victory because they do not understand who the enemy is, nor do they use the authority God has given them in Jesus to overcome their situation.

The Apostle Paul clearly identified the enemy in Ephesians 6:12, "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against authorities, against the powers of this dark world, and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." The good news is that Jesus has "given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you" (Luke 10:19).

Before ascending into heaven, Jesus instructed the disciples that they were to "wait for the gift my Father promised," explaining that in a few days they would be "baptized with the Holy Spirit" (Acts 1:4-8). He went on to tell them they would "receive power" when the Holy Spirit came upon them. If you are not baptized in the Holy Spirit, confess Jesus as your Lord and Savior, surrendering to Him completely. In faith, ask Him to baptize you in the Holy Spirit, receiving His power as promised in Acts 1:8.

Christians are to walk by faith, not by sight (II Corinthians 5:7). Do not confess the problem, or the enemy's power. Confess that Jesus Christ is greater than anything that is in the world; confess His power. Jesus promised He would never fail us, nor forsake us, but that He would be with us always, even to the end of the age. Praise God and thank Him for your victory in Christ Jesus.”

Yesterday, my mom’s caregiver told me that she’d be scared to go around anyone that is involved with anything from her past. That got me thinking, why am I not scared?

Funny thing, I went to save this and this song started playing on the stereo that I’ve always loved and I’ve sang to the Lord many times over, and I surely fits:

Fearless
By Building 429

No I don’t understand
And I can’t comprehend
This power that draws me to you
But I know for the cross
I’ll consider it all lost
In an effort to tell of the truth

That the world may know
That the world may know
You have been heaven sent to us

(Chorus)
I’ll be fearless for You
I’ll be fearless for You
Take me I’m Yours
I’ll be fearless for You

All the times that I’ve failed
When my doubt has prevailed
These are the moments I’m giving to you
Cause I can’t be ashamed
No I can’t fear the pain
When it comes time to be living proof

So the world may see
That the captives are free
‘Cause you have been heaven sent to us

(Chorus)

Unwilling to bend
Unwilling to break
And Headstrong I’ll stand
No matter what it takes

(Chorus)

--- Update: As I’m proofreading this blog post I realize that I need to add a note. This is now 2013 and although I am in recovery from illness my life with God is moving forward. I think back to volunteering to facilitate parenting in jail for 1+ years a few years back, and being fascinated that I never did care to know what any one of those women did to be arrested and put in there. Then even more recently I volunteered at The 99 (an outreach to teens & young adults) and once again I cared nothing of their past, only hoping for their futures.

When God put His love in my heart and showed me to use that love to reach others my heart changed. I learned to look at those people with His love!  His unconditional love!

*1 Corinthians 13: 1-8a
"Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing. 

Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never fails."

May God bless you through my writing. If He has especially touched you in any way, please leave a comment below. Your comments are so very encouraging to me to help me to keep writing. Also, click on the “Uptweet” button on the above right and share! I pray you will keep coming back. I fully believe that my writing is by the inspiration of the Holy Spirit so if I am writing, there is someone that needs to read it! Maybe it’s you? Also, please be sure to share any questions you might have with me and if you would like to keep them personal (just between you and me) please don’t hesitate to e-mail me at juliana.pace@gmail.com. If I don’t know how to answer you, I will may every attempt to refer you to someone for more information. Thanks and may God bless all your days!

My First Day Writing A Blog - 2009

So, this is the first time I'm attempting to write a blog and I truly do not have a clue as to what I'm doing but I guess one of the best things is that I'm attempting something new. I also know that I am not alone and I believe that God is right here inspiring me to do this and with Him all things are possible and *Phil. 4:13 "I CAN DO ALL THINGS through Christ who strengthens me!" So, here goes!

I entitled this blog "Something by Juliana" because I am a mixed-media artist so you just never will know what I might come up with. I value myself as being a uniquely designed child of God and I seem to not be satisfied with the "norm", always having to be uniquely me, who He created! So, I will have writing (all kinds to also include poetry), photos, other devotionals, quotes and whatever else might come to mind in the midst of blogging!

I decided in the past to share my writing in accordance with God's inspiration. I truly, without doubt, love our dear sweet Jesus and I wanted to make it known to all! He speaks to me and guides me through my life. I want to honestly share how He does this. I want to share my life on a regular basis with those of you who want to read. I have, in the past, written some devotionals or shared others devotionals, including how God spoke to me when I read them and so on and so forth. I hope to continue to share this with people who chose to read this, too.

Recently God has been impressing upon me, His love for me in many different ways. A friend shared with several of my women friends and I a song that I ran home and found on video yesterday. I've listened to it numerous times even purchasing the album. I believe that through her sharing of this that God has spoken to me, once again, that I am to *Matt. 6:33 "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.", that He is in control and that I am to learn to rest in Him and His love, first and foremost! I hope that this song blesses you as much as it has blessed me:


 I want to share another excerpt from the book "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young. Through this book, God speaks to me over and over again; much of the time, by impressing upon me things that I know over and over again to make an exclamation of importance upon my brain. "Seek My Face, and you will find all that you have longed for. The deepest yearnings of your heart are for intimacy with Me. I know, because I designed you to desire Me. Do not feel guilty about taking time to be still in My Presence. You are simply responding to the tugs of divinity within you. I made you in My image, and I hid heaven in your heart. Your yearning for Me is a form of homesickness: longing for your true home in heaven.

Do not be afraid to be different from other people. The path I have called you to travel is exquisitely right for you. The more closely you follow My leading, the more fully I can develop your gifts. To follow Me wholeheartedly, you must relinquish your desire to please other people. However, your closeness to Me will bless others by enabling you to shine brightly in this dark world."

I Am Here Only Because He Lives - 2009

I thought I would write about my thoughts while driving the other morning. I was listening to the Hiding Place CD while driving and the tears started flowing. My mind went back to that time in 1988 when I rededicated my life to the Lord. How much of His strength I needed in order to just make it through to tomorrow. I contemplated the fact that I wanted to check out of this life but I'd attempted suicide 4 times before and felt as though I couldn't even do that right, so I was going to have myself committed. I could no longer deal with this world! God heard my cries and saved me out of it all. Friends showed up to meet me (who had no idea what I was going to do) and kept me from doing it.  And, I knew it wasn't what God wanted!