He is making perfect sense out of a perfectly senseless, messed up life!

Wednesday, February 18, 2015


For the last 2 weeks I still had His presence with me but I felt like my ears were plugged up, like I couldn’t hear Him for some reason.  In reflection over the last few months nothing seemed to fit, every door that was opened seemed to be abruptly closed.  I had no clue what was going on!

Then Sunday morning I went to church alone (hubby changed to nights and just can’t make it to church after 2 hours of drive time and 12 hours of work – I totally understand and I believe that God does too – and maybe even God’s way of getting me alone away from home where my mind is clouded with all that is contained in our duplex.)  Only minutes into worship it all started coming to me – this was a time for me and Him.

At the beginning of the year I was praying about what direction to go with my learning.  The word “Strength” came to me several different ways and then I started on a combination art/writing journal for myself to do a study on His strength, God’s strength!

*2 Corinthians 12:10Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”

Most of you should know that prior to this I have been involved in 13 years of recovery and healing from a stroke and CNS Vasculitis that put me in bed for 2 ½ years.  BUT for all those years there have constantly been certain things improving YET it has seemed that every time that I gained my own physical strength something happened even to the point of having the bad fall in 2012 that took me mostly out of commission for several months. (I will be elaborating on this more in a chapter of my book “A Mosaic of Me”)  I have come to realize after years of getting up and falling down and getting up and falling down, that it is not my own strength that I need to seek after but God’s strength in my weakness!

SO, in church that morning I know He was showing me that it was time to take a break from constantly pursuing a ministry to others and to take some time to minister to myself.  This is not an easy pursuit as I am not easy satisfied with the mundane and working on me has always seemed like just that and I’ve mostly always been satisfied to learn of me WHILE pursuing a ministry to others.   So, I covet any prayers that you may say for me.  I know I will also be going through changes with my art and only He knows what’s next since we are not 100% sure of our living arrangements at this time either!! 

I need to be able to have time to get up, spend my day with Him while going!  Having my focus away from the rest of the world BUT on God and in turn on strength,

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