I awoke, got up and came out to my dining table after few hours of sleep. Actually I wasn’t feeling very well BUT He certainly knows how to turn my mourning to Joy…
Isaiah 61:2 “…the oil of joy for mourning…”
AND I sat down to see this on my table:
For a whole lot of years I’ve questioned Him about why I became disabled. NO, I don’t believe He did it. If you want to know more about this, read the book of Job and you will find out that He doesn’t cause the trials of life, He lets them happen. AND, He has actually shown me numerous reasons why He “enabled” me BUT this is one of my most favorite and I think you will see why.
I wish I could actually paint the memory in my head and maybe someday I will do just that, but for now I need to do this with my words and a few photos. A few years ago He let me see a memory of my past. Just a memory? Or, a vision? I don’t really know. Some things from my past that I see in my “mind’s eye” are a ‘fly on the wall’ perspective. Like these people that talk about having an ‘out of body’ experience. It’s as though I’ve risen above myself and I’m looking down at this scene from my past.
Back in our house in Ohio, I used to love to put on old clothes and go out and sit in my garden, pull weeds, ponder His work in my life, etc… I called it my sanctuary. And this time, I saw myself looking up with rays of light shining down on me…Similarly to this photo that I took the first time I went out to write on the beach on Anna Maria Island:
I was talking to Him, not out loud but in my head, and telling Him that I just longed to be closer to Him and farther away from ‘the world’.
A year or so ago after quite a few years living without many flowers around me I guess I had a light bulb go off. 💡 I started looking for flowers to buy and put on my dining table. Not only do they remind me of God’s glorious, beautiful creation BUT they also remind me of why He let me come into my garden. Maybe it is similar to my own Garden of Gethsemane where Jesus went to pray?
Please forgive me for taking so long to post to my blog. I think many of you who are looking here know that my life has been rather overwhelming since July when I was in the hospital for another heart attack. I will share in a much better way as soon as I am inspired by the Holy Spirit to do so. Thanks for hanging in there with me and your prayers are much appreciated!
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