He is making perfect sense out of a perfectly senseless, messed up life!

Saturday, June 17, 2017

PARDON MY DUST - Prayers Appreciated

For months now I've been working on updating this blog, the whole look of it, along with the rest that I do.  I've been praying about it and changing things a bit but it just wasn't right.  I've been reading some, too.  FaithfulBloggers.com is a great place to learn more about blogging and I've found some interesting and informative reads there.  I believe I have a plan started yet praying for God's wisdom/knowledge about some aspects.  So, please bare with me and send up a prayer or two if you will?   

Meanwhile I have also started Cardiac Rehabilitation at the hospital and I'm improving in leaps and bounds!  Hallelujah!  Will be back with bells on soon!

Thursday, April 20, 2017

WORSHIP

I must first apologize for not posting. It has not been a conscious thing. Actually, I just visited this blog the other day and I saw that my last post was in January and I was shocked. Having a heart attack is a very different thing than I have ever experienced. It has taken me some time to get back to who I previously was. I’m not even sure how to explain it, just please be patient with me. I am still here and I think I’m at least quite close to being back even with a third Cardiac Catheter next week (prayers are appreciated) and Cardiac Rehabilitation to go through.

(I had an amazing miracle there. God is so good. Most would truly POO-POO a hospital visit for chest pains. I was admitted and what a mess when I went in but I won’t even go there. I was hoping to Cardiac Rehabilitation after the stent placement but my insurance wanted $90. Co-pay per week for 36 weeks…rather ridiculous. My Cardiologist was not the least bit happy about it. Another Cardiologist from the same group visited me in the hospital who said he had looked over my file and was hoping to get me a scholarship to the Cardiac Rehabilitation. I was in disbelief and shock for several days. I shared this with my Cardiologist on Tuesday and he is calling them to get my co-pay waived. HALLELUJAH!


*Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”)

Worship is in my heart. I had to write about this because I don’t think there is much that brings me more joy. Since our move 3/18/16, I have had to use the GPS in our car when I’m driving and to listen to it I’ve had to keep the music turned down. What a truly SAD thing for me!

From the dictionary as a verb:
to render religious reverence and homage to.

2. to feel an adoring reverence or regard for (any person or thing).

I have heard some say that they believe that this will be our most important function in heaven so we should learn to do it now. If that is the case then I am well prepared.

I have several things to share that may help you to understand my heart. For more than a week now, the song that has played in the back of my head daily, all day is Overwhelmed by Big Daddy Weave. 

Rather an ultimate worship song. Usually when I have a song play over and over in my head I find some reason for it in the lyrics. It’ll play until I find it. With this song I seem to find nothing more than this is the reason for so many of my tears of joy. When I pay attention to this song, His presence is apparent in my home and His joy explodes in my heart! There are many worship songs that express how I feel yet none so “overwhelming”.

So, after this explanation you may be able to see why I’m so elated when I share that I’m finally learning my way around. Just a few days ago I found that I was able to drive some distance without GPS so I cranked up my worship music and it nearly transported me to heaven.

I am a Pentecostal. I looked up the definitions to share but none are as effective as just sharing the why and an example of what this truly means to me. Several years back the minister of music at our church gave us an explanation that I will never forget. He shared about coming home to his house and his three-year-old son excitedly running to him with outstretched arms. It's like I’m taking Him in. I’m wanting to enwrap Him with my arms. Like the words to that song “Overwhelmed”. Yet I have seen one video that has always truly impressed upon me that this was being “Pentecostal”. And that is the video for Forever by Kari Jobe. I am excited about what Jesus did for me. It says in Psalms

*Let All Things Praise the Lord
150 Praise the Lord!
Praise God in His sanctuary;
Praise Him in His mighty firmament!

Praise Him for His mighty acts;
Praise Him according to His excellent greatness!

Praise Him with the sound of the trumpet;
Praise Him with the lute and harp!

Praise Him with the timbrel and dance;

Praise Him with stringed instruments and flutes!

Praise Him with loud cymbals;

Praise Him with clashing cymbals!

Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.

Praise the Lord!

And, another that I memorized when I was a little girl and I’ve remembered to this day:



*Psalm 100 

Make a joyful noise unto the Lord, all ye lands.

Serve the Lord with gladness: come before his presence with singing.

Know ye that the Lord he is God: it is he that hath made us, and not we ourselves; we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture.

Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name.

For the Lord is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his truth endureth to all generations.



AND, if I can even write this after having a heart attack, I’m on my way back! God is so good. I have full assurance that if I was to die that I would be instantly transported to heaven where I would spend eternity. While still on this earth, worship is the next best thing.








May God bless you through my writing. If He has especially touched you in any way, please leave a comment below. Your comments are so very encouraging to me to help me to keep writing. Also, click on the “Uptweet” button on the above right and share! I pray you will keep coming back. I fully believe that my writing is by the inspiration of the Holy Spirit so if I am writing, there is someone that needs to read it! Maybe it’s you? Also, please be sure to share any questions you might have with me and if you would like to keep them personal (just between you and me) please don’t hesitate to e-mail me at juliana.pace@gmail.com. If I don’t know how to answer you, I will may every attempt to refer you to someone for more information. Thanks and may God bless all your days!

Monday, January 9, 2017

I HAVE TO BELIEVE


I ALWAYS love this song no matter how old it gets in the mind, it still rings true in the heart!








*Romans 8:28 “And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.”

I don’t know how else to be. After the 28 years since I finally fell, I know no other way but to run to Him! My past is was so sorted and scary that I am so thankful that He has given me this in my heart, that I know nothing else to do but to run to Him.

This whole heart thing started out with a trip to Pennsylvania to see my step-son (son in our eyes) get married and I ended up in the hospital with a diagnosis of Congestive Heart Failure. And my mouth fell to my chest!



I had not had anything close to this in my life. Even though I smoked for 33 years (quitting in 2007), I had been a swimmer my entire life and I swam better under water than on top. The last I knew I could hold my breath for 2 ½ pool lengths. And here I was with Congestive Heart Failure that included such awful Shortness of Breath. And my life changed drastically!

*Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.”

I ran to Him. The days continued when we got home with more attacks. Sleeping with a large foam wedge to keep me sitting way up at night while sleeping since otherwise I would end up wheezing and go into heart failure. And, finally a Cardiologist who ordered more testing to end up finding out that I’d had a heart attack. I’d had a heart attack? This was definitely not something that I expected to hear!

And I saw a photo posted on Facebook that struck a chord with me, this time:



Praying is all that I’ve known to do. I’d lie in bed and just talk to Him, telling Him all my thoughts. I was so bewildered. How did this happen? Why did this happen? Why did He let this happen?

And now I had to have a Cardiac Catheter (which had frightened me since working at the hospital in the 1990’s). And with the upcoming holidays this had to wait and I had to be maintained with God and their medicine?


And, life goes on. Two days before Christmas my husband came home with a fever higher than 102. He ended up having Cellulitis in his left leg. This is blood poisoning and if not treated, deadly. I sat watching Christmas movies for days by myself. We did finally have a couple of hours of Christmas time on Christmas night where we got to open presents but he still was not eating yet. All plans cancelled with family.

We did finally get together with family the night before my Cardiac Catheter was scheduled.

*Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
 In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.”

My husband’s last trip to the Emergency Room was on the night that I had Cardiac PCI surgery.

We need to back up a bit to the day of my Cardiac Catheter. I went through the procedure with numerous prayers coming from all over. They only sedate you for this procedure. They don’t put you all the way out. I have learned to pray as much as possible even to the point of thinking “Thank You Lord. Praise You Lord. Thank You Lord. Praise You Lord.” Continuously through the procedure when my mind is too occupied by the sedative. In no time it was over with yet I was immediately told that my heart was a mess with many blockages plus a part was either dead or sleeping with no assurance that it will awaken until blood flow is restored. I was told that I needed open heart surgery and I was given an appointment to see a Cardiac surgeon more than 2 weeks later. (How bad did you have to be to get more immediate attention? Sounded pretty bad to me.) and I was sent home.

I went home to “take it easy” without knowing for sure exactly what that was. But, I was tired so I relaxed on the bed even napping before my hubby got off work. Going to sleep later was a different story. I’d slept maybe an hour when I awoke abruptly with shortness of breath that would not let up so I went to the couch then soon I was calling 911. I was taken to the heart hospital by rescue squad that I’d been to hours earlier for the Cardiac Catheter. It wasn’t long before they’d found that I had fluid filled lungs (more than likely from a weakened heart and lungs) and it was thought that I should see the surgeon sooner to get the ball rolling for surgery. This was on a Tuesday. They shared reasons why they felt I was not eligible for open heart surgery and why stenting (PCI – multiple stent surgery) was more probable. (Hallelujah).

Numerous tests were then ordered to determine my physical situation to withstand surgery.

Finally, the PCI was scheduled for Friday. I woke up that morning, looked on the white board in my room that lists my nurse, patient tech, objectives for the day, etc… and I saw:
   

   
I had to laugh yet I knew that this was a God thing. In AA in Ohio they had a saying that ‘coincidence is God’s way of remaining anonymous’. I love things like this and He knows it!

Before long, I was in the Cath Lab, the procedure was done and aside from a few muscle spasms in my right arm that were all totally part of me, it went off without a hitch. I ended up being in the hospital until the following day when I was discharged.

The most significant thing I posted to Facebook after getting home?

“I must be honest! I am scared! Prayers please! I just prayed with Joe telling Him that I know that He knows what we need! In the past I had trust issues yet I always trusted Him to clear up those issues! That is how I feel today! I am an altered me! But I know He will teach me how to get through this! And, healing for my right wrist that is still aching from the procedure!

2 Corinthians 12:9-10 And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”

I am moody. I have trouble looking at all the housework around me that I can’t fully do. I’m recuperating and awaiting a cardiologist appointment next week but all of this is in God’s hands.




UPDATE:  I've had 2 doctor's appointments since the stents were placed.  My breathing has already improved and has been confirmed by these doctors.  I am in the process of waiting to have my Cardiac Rehabilitation approved by my insurance.  I am feeling stronger almost daily!  All thanks and praise to Him who ONLY deserves it!  Hallelujah!


May God bless you through my writing. If He has especially touched you in any way, please leave a comment below. Your comments are so very encouraging to me to help me to keep writing. Also, click on the “Uptweet” button on the above right and share! I pray you will keep coming back. I fully believe that my writing is by the inspiration of the Holy Spirit so if I am writing, there is someone that needs to read it! Maybe it’s you? Also, please be sure to share any questions you might have with me and if you would like to keep them personal (just between you and me) please don’t hesitate to e-mail me at juliana.pace@gmail.com. If I don’t know how to answer you, I will may every attempt to refer you to someone for more information. Thanks and may God bless all your days!