He is making perfect sense out of a perfectly senseless, messed up life!

Saturday, March 24, 2018

MERCY

I’m working on my first Bible Journaling since our return from Pennsylvania.  We went to visit our son (my step-son) and won’t go again until we are sure that winter is over.  Our trip started out cold but tolerable until when were were closer to leaving then things fell apart – nearly everything!  I got sick, my husband got sick, the weather turned to us being delayed in flying home due to us running from a major storm to get out of there.  Our son was in a car accident – not hurt yet car probably totaled.  We came home to a messy house, I was so exhausted, still feeling ill.  My hubby having to have a tooth pulled on top of still fighting the pink eye.  I was in a lousy mood, not wanting to talk to anyone.  

My brother called, read me scripture and prayed for me (one of the very nicest things of growing up with a big brother who’s a minister (now retired)).  

With all the mess in our home I could not even seem to wrap any part of my head around Bible Journaling even though I knew it would help me to feel better!  I actually just started leafing through my Journaling Bible looking for inspiration.

And my eyes were diverted to

*Hebrews 13:5b “…I will never fail you, I will never abandon you.”

And I was reminded of that period back in 2013 that I always wanted to share about.  I had vertigo.  I don’t know how many of you have had it but if you have, you know what I’m talking about when I share that it is one of the most awful symptoms there is.  It is also very similar to the “Brain Nausea” that I had when on the Decadron for the brain lesions that I incurred from the CNS Vasculitis.  I was so mad at God for letting this happen again that I said all kinds of things to Him that I would have never said in my right mind.  After this I felt foolish for saying such things, begging His forgiveness.  And yet all the while I was mad and spewing I kept hearing “And, I still love you.”… “And, I’m still here.”…and I won’t leave you.”  This is where I truly learned this, deep within my heart and it changed me somewhat.  I learned of His deep love for me like never before.

He was reminding me of this now.  And my heart softened at His MERCY!







No comments:

Post a Comment